Chrissy Teigen was recently under fire following the bullying scandal; the cookbook author was alleged to bully Courtney Stodden for marrying Doug Hutchison. Following the incident, Chrissy issued an apology statement to Stodden.
Courtney believed the apology was not sincere, and since then, Chrissy has been a member of the "Cancel Club." The American television personality took to her Instagram account to share how is she holding up.
In her recent post, Chrissy shared a picture of her legs while lying on her couch, where she addressed her mental health and other issues that she's been dealing with.
'I don’t really know what to say here... Just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter sh*t in real life. Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right; being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race,' Teigen wrote.
Chrissy Teigen shares she is depressed following being in a cancel club. (Teigen/Instagram)
Chrissy continued, "But I do know that however I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer. I feel lost and need to find my place again,I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay."
The model said, "I’m not used to any other way!! Cancel club is a fascinating thing and I have learned a whollllle lot. Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it. And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously you sound whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong. It just sucks. "
She added, "There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow. All I know is I love you guys, I miss you guys, and I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just...tired of being sick with myself all day. I don’t even know if it’s good to say any of this because it’s gonna get brutally picked apart but I dunno."
She ended her note with "I Love U,." Teigen wrote, "I can’t do this silent sh*t anymore! If you or someone you know has also been canceled please let me know if there is a cancel club reunion because I could use some time off my couch! Thank u and goodbye I love u."